Honestly Honest.

   There is this Idea that we have been discussing in my Critical Thinking and Writing class this has been fascinating me for days. The idea is simple and one that I thought that I understood but the more that we talk about it in class the less I feel like I understand. The idea is Honesty.
    Do you ever just speak your thoughts? Like right now I have no desire to get ready for the day. And by that I mean brush my teeth, take a shower get dressed and do all of that other related stuff. I am laying in my bed typing this and to be honest I am quite enjoying myself, and I am quite comfortable.
     It isn't easy just to say what comes to your mind. We think some pretty weird things sometimes. Whenever I talk about thinking it always makes me want to do the don't think test. If you say "DON'T think of a pink elephant." naturally most of the people reading this are now picturing a pink elephant. I personally just started thinking about Dumbo and the pink elephant song. which has nothing to do with what I have been talking about but it just proves that we think about weird things.
      We have been trained by society to not say what we think, but to say what others want to hear. Or, Maybe its not even what others want to hear. We say what we say in order to get what we want, even if what we say is true or not. regardless of if others want to hear it or not.
See this is the part of honesty that I cant seem to wrap my head around. Why do we say what we say? Its hard to judge why you, yourself, are saying what you are saying, but that I think is the most important thing.
    This random song just popped into my head that I heard a while back. Its super cheesy and I guess its not totally random. Why do we call things cheesy. wow. anyway the song lyrics are "my teacher told me I should never tell a lie, because a lie will bring you trouble sure as pie. Its an awful thing to do and its true is true as true if you tell it you might as well go and lie right down and die, your much better off to never tell a lie. Not even sometimes, remember never never tell a lie." yup I just quoted that entire cheesy song. now my brain wants to talk about cheese, and what kind of cheese this song is.
\     Now through these last few paragraphs I have been trying to write exactly what comes to my mind before my mind has a chance to filter it. So I have been a little skiwompous, but there is a point I would like to get to.
     The point is that Honesty is only Honest when it is for the right reasons. My teacher has been drilling us about this. (see here goes my brain again, it wants to talk about how weird drilling is as a description, I'm going to force it to stay on topic though.) Honesty can only be honest if you are telling someone what you think before you filter it, for the purpose of allowing someone else to see who you really are. That's the trick. Honesty must be for the purpose of letting someone see who you really are. and that's scary.
I dare you to try it though. I dare me to try it. I'm not good at it at all. I usually just tell people what they want to hear rather than showing them who I really am. (probably cause I am skiwompous.) as always I would love to hear your thoughts, your honest thoughts, try responding with exactly what your brain is thinking right now. That way we can get to know each other, who we really are.